Andrew had just turned 5, and Jason was 7 ½ . And now I was pregnant again. Really? What were we going to do? I’ll never forget driving down the interstate talking about all of the things we didn’t have. We didn’t have a baby bed, bibs, bottles, or blankets. We didn’t have anything. Another child? I was almost 37 years old. I was too old to be having another baby. And yet, here we were.
I was 8 weeks pregnant. And scared to death. Yes, it was my 3rd pregnancy, but the boys were planned from the beginning. They were expected. And they were only 2 ½ years apart. Andrew would be 5 ½ and Jason would be 8 when this baby was born. How would they react? Would they feel cheated? Could I handle another pregnancy at my age? Could I handle another BABY at my age?
The boys were THRILLED when they found out I was pregnant and thankfully, everyone else was too. And I also started getting excited. Then the doctor said he thought it could be an ectopic pregnancy because my numbers were too low. And I got scared all over again. I’ll never forget the feeling when the nurse told me the baby was exactly where it should be. And that’s when I knew I REALLY wanted this baby. I was no longer scared about HAVING the baby; I was scared about NOT having the baby. Throughout my whole pregnancy I kept saying, “God’s plan’s different than mine. “ And I knew He was smarter than me!
Of course that didn’t end my event filled pregnancy. We had many ups and downs throughout it, some scarier than others. But finally it was time for our little baby girl to be born. She was born at 4:26 am on 8/16/07. The first words out of Ryan’s mouth were, “she’s healthy!” You see, we’d spent the whole pregnancy knowing there was a chance that she could have Down Syndrome because eventhough the odds got lower with every ultrasound, they still couldn’t tell us 100% that she wouldn’t have it. And we knew that we would handle whatever came our way. But the relief in knowing that she was healthy and her life would be easier, was worth more than I can tell you. And I couldn’t stop crying. We finally had our baby girl. And she was healthy. And she was beautiful.
And now that baby girl is almost 3 ½. And I thank God EVERY DAY that He gave her to us. I tell people that we were a happy family before she was born. But now we’re “complete”. I can’t imagine our lives without her. She’s beautiful, and bossy, and funny, and happy, and bossy, and bright, and did I mention bossy?! And her brothers adore her, and she adores them. She keeps life interesting. And while at times I think about how old I’ll be when she starts college, I still can’t imagine our lives without her. She has brought so much joy to our lives, and I think she’s made us closer as a family. Sarah Elizabeth, you are definitely a gift from God.
Representative of: My Thirty-One
Author Note: Michelle’s story shows that even the most unexpected things in our lives hold the essence of miracles and blessings; of possibly some of the most joyous of our occasions. That no matter how old you are Life still contains surprises, maybe some of the best ones yet to come. We were blessed to give Michelle 3rd place in our Beautiful Moment’s Writing Contest.
Michelle is the author of the blog Bruner Family Travels and is also a representative of My Thirty-One. I implore everyone to check out her blog as well as the many beautiful handbags she has just waiting a click away. Maybe it’s your unexpected surprise for the day.