For the past 6 years I’ve been battling chronic pain in my lower back with pain / nerve issues on the left side of my body. I’ve had countless x-rays, 3 MRI’s, acupuncture, seen 2 chiropractors, had those horrible cortisone shots, am on my second round of physical therapy and I’ve been on and off pain medication for years. I had stopped writing about my health issues for awhile, but then everything got worse and I’m pretty sure my doctor thinks I’m crazy.
Some months ago I took a 2 hour drive that set this path in motion. It was too much for me and I started having serious sciatica on my left side again, other nerve issues with my hand and my back was so bad I called my doctor crying. I hadn’t went in to see her in a year, so here we were again with the same problems. I decided to get an updated MRI on my lipoma (a fatty lump in the spine), but nothing was amiss there; so in November we decided on Physical Therapy.
For the second time I learned that my pelvis and spine had been twisted and rotated out of place; my neck and all of this together was just too much. My therapists spent a few weeks trying to keep things in place and I had to stop doing anything for awhile. Sitting became a problem and laying down became a problem; standing was okay as long as I wasn’t leaning to one side. Everything I did would possibly shift everything, even sleeping. I was relearning how to move and it was not coinciding very well with work or my life; especially with Tot’s current issues. This is why I had disappeared from blogging for awhile.
After a few weeks out of therapy in December due to sickness, January met me head on with having to refix everything and it all being too painful for me to deal with. I was sinking so far into chronic pain depression that I wasn’t sure I’d find a way out and it didn’t help when I went to see my doctor for an update visit only to hear that it was probably all in my head. There are a lot of things and people contradicting everything my doctor has told me, so I decided to set an appointment with another doctor to get a second opinion.
Currently I’m still in physical therapy. I couldn’t survive if it wasn’t for the therapists who take so much time to fix me through tender point therapy and adjusting my body so I can function with less pain and be able to walk like normal. I go 2x a week and they’re teaching me how to fix things myself since I can’t go forever. I’m lucky my doctor is even allowing me to continue through the month. I don’t see the new doctor until May, so until then I’m doing the best I can with what I have. I’ve refused to go on opioids or anti-depressants that my doctor had talked about and I’ve refused those horrid cortisone shots that have caused more harm than good. I figure those things are a very last resort that I’m not ready for.
All that keeps me sane is the fact that one side of my body is just fine, so I know with a great clarity what is normal and what is not. I’m a little slower than I was last year, but I’m here and I’m pushing through it. Most of all though, I have a lot of hope that this year will be the year that I find answers. Wish me luck.