I’ve been meaning to write something about this for awhile and just never got around to it for one reason or another. It is one of those thoughts that never seem to be completely fluid, it just meanders around in your brain until you finally give up trying to stamp it down with words, but I felt it was time to let it go – even in its pieces.
I’m happy no one really pesters me on here about my time and often is very patient with me in regards to when I post things and/or come onto the social channels to chat. I restrict my time on here to the time that is ‘my time’ as I don’t consider this my job exactly. At one point I was thinking about making it my job, but then I wanted to be a Mom and a Wife more than a Blogger. Some of you might think that an odd statement, but I know there are many of you that understand it. You see… I’m a Stay-at-Home Mom currently. I chose to do this when my husband offered it to me about 5 years ago. I left my career as an Insurance Adjuster / Part-time Model / Gaming PR and came here to be a Mom full-time, home with my insane tween and then my little crazy monkey tot. That was my choice, taking on the responsibilities of Homemaker / SAHM. When I got into Blogging it was meant to be to have something for me to expand on my writing. I’m one of those so-called writers, you know the ones that haven’t finished anything yet. Then it became somewhat of a hobby, I was pretty good at it as I had prior experience in customer relations online. Then it became a bit more serious and a bit more serious until I started having problems with my family and my husband… then myself. It consumed me and the more I thought about making it my full-time job the more I realized what it would replace, my full-time Mommy job and I didn’t want that.
inRandom is a Family Blog, it has little pieces throughout it that are special to each of us. We all came here in on our own ways to branch out and have a place for ourselves. Moms need space and this was our space and I brought in the best – the people I loved, my family. I even consider my writer Cassie a part of my family because if she was closer I’m sure we’d be the best of friends. So I’m glad I got to keep her with me here and Angie… well she’s been my best friend for over 15 years and is the entire reason I’m married to the man in the shower right now. So, this is my family too. But you see, I started thinking the other day about how much of a hypocrite I would feel like if all the sudden I started spending all my time on here instead of with my Family, to whom this blog is supposed to be a reflection of; in my part at least. And how could I expect all my writers to take the time away from their families to write on the Family blog about our Families we aren’t spending time with? Get my drift? So… that’s when I realized I liked how things were. I like running inRandom in my Me-Mommy’s Time Out time. I do a pretty good job, I believe, with the hours that I have and my husband is great to let me sneak off if necessary to finish a few things. Consider how many Me-Mommy’s Time Out time I have and I run this blog and also assist on Outnumbered 3 to 1 and our statistics are average for a full-time Blogger. I think I’m doing something right!
There is nothing more precious to me than time. I gave my life for my children, each of them, in more ways than one and they are my whole wide world. This little space here, this little random corner of the Blogiverse, is the place I go to sit back and reflect on that world and the people I love so much within it. I write reviews because it helps to expand my skills as a writer in many ways, the greatest one being to write on schedule about subjects that I don’t exactly ‘choose’ to write about (meaning it isn’t this great fictional piece of art). This way I can branch out because if I ever do get out there as an author I know that I need to get used to scheduling. Plus! Well, I also see reviews for products no different than telling my family and friends about things I’ve found and picked up, it’s just that you – as readers – become the extended family of inRandom and I whisper them to you. And you know I love to do giveaways because I love to just give everything I can, it’s nice to hear it’s made someone’s day!
But when it comes to working, I need to make sure my focus is on my real job, my life. So if you are ever wondering where I am, I’m here, just unplugged. I’m laughing at my little tot as he makes up songs and dances in the living room or getting annoyed at my husband for being grumpy (I love you!) and maybe perhaps getting on to my eldest because he forgot to turn in his homework. I’m right here, just on the other side of the screen and eventually I’ll come back around and look eye to eye at the words and maybe tell you a story or show you something new. I just hope you wait awhile. I can’t be here all the time, none of us can really. In many ways we’d love to spend all day on here, but somehow I wonder if that would take away from what makes it so special as a Family Blog. It takes away the moments that create it, like Kids Kitchen and Fluffy Nest or my messy un-concentrated rambling.
This is in no way saying that making Blogging a full-time job isn’t a great thing! I would love to have the ability to do it, but I chose the job that I did a long time ago and I have a lot of people that depend on me and not in bad ways – just in Mommy / Wife / Friend / Sister / Daughter / Auntie ways. And the more time I put here the more I take away from all of them and for me, in the end, the worth doesn’t balance out. I don’t have any sense of immortality and the time we have is never guaranteed, tomorrow is always unknown and I feel like I am missing out on it whenever I turn around. So I come here when it stops, when the day pauses and sleepy heads nap, busy ones work and I can be alone without the heavy responsibilities of life on my shoulders.
Just like anyone else, I have to remind myself from time to time what I’m distracting myself with and/or distracting my distractions with. What is important to me and where is my focus? So I’m just sharing with you why it’s different here, why you might not see us constantly bombarding our social networks and/or always having posts up every few hours. We’re living our lives, just as you are, but we always come back and we always share them with you in the ways that we can.
So that has been on my mind a lot lately. I sometimes feel a guilt not being around on here like many other Bloggers, but I know that what I’m doing feels right in the capacity that I am running. I’m thankful for the companies that also enjoy our blog and can see that we have personality. And for all of you that put up with us of course! Especially me, as erratic as I am and as ever changing as I make this place, you stick around and you read, you enter giveaways and you laugh with us. You also read this unnecessary stuff I write early in the morning that generally never comes around to making much sense. 🙂 I’m glad that I didn’t decide to make this my job ‘job’ and instead just made it a great place to hang out with all of you.