I missed yesterday’s prompt as I was having some family difficulties so it’s 2:26am and I figured I’d try to make up for time.
I suppose I always knew my home wasn’t like most people. I grew up from a poor family that lived from one broken home to the next, sometimes with a bed and sometimes not. Later I would become a young teen Mom and my Home would be on my shoulders and wherever Life tended to carry me; typically from one apartment to another.
Keeping with the nomad lifestyle, my home as I later married became better yet still sparse and only in these recent years has there been any comfort to hang things on the wall and take belongings out of suitcases. Pretty soon we’re going to be Home Owners and then the roots will begin to plant themselves for the first time in almost 32 years.
Or maybe the question isn’t really about the foundation of home more than the concept of home, “Home is in your Heart”. To that I must say that I knew from the moment I could grasp any concept of being that I was odd and the home in my heart wasn’t exactly a material fixture. Having grown up in a cult I honestly believed with conviction that my home was in Heaven and I was just biding my time here, learning as I went, waiting.
I never understood why people cared so much about ‘homes’ because the very real home to me was when I would eventually just pass away; which is also why I grew up with a very different concept of death. Later, however, once removed from the cult and after having a child I realized my home was my family. Home was Cody and then later Cody and Judah. The structure below my feet and above my head (even past the universes reach) no longer was the idea of home.
I guess I always knew my home was different. When I was little my home was different from everyone else, in my teen years and now through my adult years. My Mother always said, “Your Home is a representation of yourself.” I think my sons make great representations of me and if we’re not exactly the same as others… well… the little differences in life are what make it so beautiful.