“Well…what’s it say…are you?” Laura asks
“It’s positive.” i reply
Laura jumps up from her chair “Oh my god, that’s great!” giving me a genuine comforting hug of acceptance.
“I’m pregnant!” I yell at her while shrugging my arm away from her grip so i can escape the front porch. “OH MY GOD!!” She yells at me with pure hatred in her tone. Throwing her arms up into the air, “Well what the hell are you going to do?!?” Her body language so angered i start to walk away “I’m going to keep it!” I shout at her as i am making my way to the car. Making my anger well known by throwing my middle finger in the air towards her before i step into my car.
“It’s a Boy!” the ultrasound tech tells us. I look at Ralph, we’re hand in hand. He’s smiling and a tear rolls down my face. A tear of happiness for him, his first born, “it’s a boy” i repeat so softly. I hear a lot of clicking and pressing on the machine from the technician. I hear picture after picture sliding from the side. She cuts the picture’s from the machine and calmly gets up from her chair, “Excuse me but i will be back shortly.” Leaving the room and shutting the door behind her. I continue looking at Ralph and he’s smiling at me just holding and caressing my hand so sweetly. Moments later she re-enters the room, “You can put your top back on now and if you wouldn’t mind having a seat in the waiting room, the doctor would like to see you when he is done.” Pleasant voiced and smiling she escorts us to the waiting room.
I’m nervous extremely nervous.
It’s time, I’m in the operating room, Ralph by my side. Doctor’s everywhere getting prepared for the big moment, getting ready to act fast with absolutely no time to spare! My friend Laura standing tucked out of the way by the door. She and Ralph are my only family that are there by my side, we’re all getting ready to experience a miracle.
I am ready, he is ready! Minutes just flew by and before i know it there he is, a beautiful baby boy, an angel who has been sent to me. Robert Dean Rue is now here. The room fell silent and all i hear is a female doctor say “Oh My God, he’s awake!” shocked and surprised, then one more “Oh My God, he’s awake!” The reason this comes as such a shock to them is because this baby boy who is NOW here and NOW awake showing life, had all odds against him. A continuous stream of heart wrenching bad news for four months. I reach my hand out to try to touch him, even if for just a split second and i say “Oh My God Yes he is awake!” smiling with a moment of relief and joy that is indescribable.